What is: Steampunk

Well, if you’re wondering what Steampunk is and the basics of it then you’re certainly in the right place. Steampunk is a fashion based on Victorian Era clothing with a modern, technology-based twist. It mainly depicts modern machines with a 1800s steam-powered look. The main color scheme is copper and brass colors. It can be from simple DIY cosplay guns to complicated armor.

Steampunk started off as a type of Cyberpunk with works like books and novels that featured the midwest and Victorian era settings. Clothing with steam-powered modern day technology. It then went to shows, fashion and for some, even a lifestyle.

Steampunk is full of DIY projects where you can make your own clothing and items. There’s also a good market place for finding Steampunk clothes and items.

Of course Steampunk is based upon the eye of the beholder.

http://www.steampunk.com/what-is-steampunk

http://www.ministryofpeculiaroccurrences.com/what-is-steampunk/

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What is: Lolita?

So you may have heard of Lolita but can’t quite place in your mind what exactly it looks like. Well, for people who don’t live in Japan that’s a hard thing to picture. It’s a Japanese subculture originating in Japan in the 1990s. It’s a very unique fashion with it’s own rules. I remember how I was always wondering what this Lolita thing was that my anime friends would talk about. So in this post I will be covering what Lolita is and on how one can get into what is known as Lolita.

Lolita fashion is based on Victorian and Edwardian fashion with a Rococo era influence mixed in. It’s often described as Alice in Wonderland meets the Addams family. The style came about originally as a trend based off of a combination of things, including wanting to dress as a French-style “Lady Doll”, which is a doll that depicts a proper, mature woman wearing the high class fashions of the day. This also came about in response to the 1962 and later 1997 film depictions of the much derided, heavily controversial, but also much beloved book by the Russian author Vladimir Nabokov called “Lolita”, published in 1955 in France and written in English, wherein a 37-year-old, aging French Literature professor named Humbert Humbert takes up a passionate, devouring and doomed romantic and sexual relationship with a twelve-year-old prostitute named Dolores Haze.  There are three main different types of Lolita. Sweet Lolita, Gothic Lolita and classic Lolita. All forms have their unique styles and influences. Sweet Lolita is more candy and sweets covered in pastel colors.

Gothic Lolita is more dark colors and Gothic themes. Classic Lolita is more classic victorian era styled clothing. Now I will go about getting into our next part of this article and go about how to get in to the lolita style. My own personal advice would be to start with accessories and start adding them to your normal outfits. Then to slowly start moving in to bigger pieces like a dress or skirt. There are plenty of places you can buy a lolita clothing . It just takes a quick Google search. There are several articles that explain more in depth on how to create a lolita coordinate.

http://www.unsungfilms.com/13655/adaptations-of-lolita/

http://asianbeat.com/en/feature/issue_lolita/history.html

http://fyeahlolita.blogspot.com/2013/11/why-is-lolita-called-lolita-does-lolita.html

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lolita_fashion

https://www.google.com/search?biw=1439&bih=784&q=Lolita+fashion+origins&oq=Lolita+fashion+origins&gs_l=psy-ab.3…351945.361355.0.361685.23.22.0.0.0.0.517.3136.0j7j4j2j0j1.15.0.dummy_maps_web_fallback…0…1.1.64.psy-ab..8.5.1530.6..0j35i39k1j0i131k1j0i67k1j0i131i67k1j0i20i264k1.280.93ZmnqCmx2A

What is: ddlg

I without a doubt love ddlg and mdlb stuff. Of course my personal thing is ddlb. Now you might ask what do ddlg mdlb and ddlb stand for? Well it’s daddy/ mommy dom and little girl /boy. It can be simple where a person just likes calling their lover daddy or you can take it really far and live as a 24/7 little girl or boy. Let’s get into more specifics in this fetish.

This fetish is all about your submissive acting out the role of being a little girl or boy. It by no means is pedophilia because your partner’s actual age is still over 18. I do not support pedophilia in anyway by writing this post. The caregiver often has a more nurturing and loving role rather than being strictly dominant. It really does depend on your submissive’s needs. Daddy dom and submissive Littles come in all shapes and sizes. A daddy Dom is more for guiding their little and a loving way. Communication is a big factor in the relationship to ensure that both sides are happy. Like for example in my relationship things are both out of the bedroom and sexual at the same time. On that note, there are also different types of Littles. There are Kitten Littles which enjoy acting like a cat but also being a Little. They’re also known as Pets. There is crybaby Littles,  which is more on the emotional side of a Little. And then there are angel babies. Which is a Little that is perfect like an angel.

I have a set a time in the day where I am Little and have time to relax from my stressful day.

Well, I hope that was helpful information on the daddy and little girl lifestyle for fetish.

Update

I’d like to write an update on how me and my Master are doing. It seems to be really hard to live without him by my side. I was so used to waking up next to him every morning. I however though have been talking to him through Facebook Messenger and through a couple app. We have to live separately for a while because of people not wanting us to live together. It’s more based on utilities at separate houses rather than one person having an undesirable personality. I suffer from schizophrenia so it’s hard to tell what he means through text. I somehow manage, though we also talked through video chatting. I bought a new sex toy that is made of glass and so far I am loving it. It’s very silky smooth and pleasurable. My Master can’t wait to use it on me. I think I enjoy it more than normal dildos because of the smooth texture. It calms me down and helps me with stress. It looks like a Sailor Moon wand. I also found out that lolita clothing can fit me and I also found out that it feels very comfortable on me so I might start wearing that as clothing. I think that’s all I will update on for today.

What is: emo?

I remember how in high-school I’d get teased about being “goth” but that’s funny because I’m Emo. though I found out Emo is a subculture of goth\punk. What is Emo? You may find yourself asking. Well the definition can be different for everyone just like many things on this blog. I honestly feel that someone being Emo is a person that’s more in touch with their emotions and also likes Emocore music and maybe fashion. You don’t have to dress Emo to be Emo. I honestly feel the correct label for an Emo kid is Scene. In my opinion it’s silly to name a person that dresses in tight jeans and band t-shirts Emo after a genre of music.

Well, Emo culture started in the 1980’s as a genere of music from the punk music scene. It was at that point known as Emocore. Today Scene kids are kinda rare in my opinion. They usually dress in tight skinny jeans and band t-shirts. They listen to emotional music and screamo. They pride themselves on being an outcast and often feel that no one understands them.

I’d like to take some time and address a very serious note. That Emos often cut themselves and that you’re not Emo if you don’t cut. To be honest, you can be Emo just by liking the music. So please don’t hurt yourself because of fashion. I also feel you should seek out help if you are cutting or self harming.

My eternity collar

I have some amazing news. My loving Master has let me buy my eternity collar and I’m super happy that he wants to keep me as his slave for an eternity. I’ll post pictures and explain what an eternity collar is. For me it’s basically my kinky wedding ring.

In BDSM a sub/pet/slave can be given a collar by their Owner or Master as a sign of being owned by them. Usually a submissive starts off with a starter collar as a kind of testing the waters then is given a slightly more permanent collar that means they’re fully collared by their Owner and some take it a step further and collar their submissive for an eternity.

For me it’s basically the kinky equivalent to a promise ring. Then a more formal engagement ring then full marriage ring. Its saying “Hey I want you in my life forever.”

The site I got mine off of is.

https://www.eternitycollars.com .

It’s light weight and you can wear it 24/7 . It’s a great collar if you’re looking for something that’s heavy duty and strong while being worn 24/7. You can even give your Master the “key” and be locked in it.

Writing prompt: I tried to say goodbye

She looked him in the eyes, his beautiful blue eyes staring back at him piercing her soul. She then realized she didn’t want to die, she wanted to live for him. He gave her purpose.

When have you tried to say goodbye but found you couldn’t? That feeling of chills you get by being with them only made things worse. I had times with my Daddy where I almost wanted to say goodbye and it was because of my ever present depression. I was so deep inside my negative thoughts I almost said goodbye to Daddy forever. I’m happy I stuck around because I don’t know what I’d do without him.

This past year I’ve been through a lot and honestly I wouldn’t be here without my Daddy’s help. I’m happy to be alive and grateful for every day. I can only hope that life gets better.

On a side note I figured I’d turn all my writing prompts into bdsm styled themes. Like self made short stories or personal memories.

Are you truly Finite?

Today I’m trying out blogging prompts just so I can get in some good practice for writing. My one word prompt is finite which means blocked or limited. So a good example is how we as humans are finite unlike God who is infinite. So interestingly enough, this reminds me of when I first started practicing witchcraft. I had to learn that I am finite.

In Wicca, you can’t do silly things like creating fire on your hand out of nothing and tossing it at someone. No, unfortunately Wicca isn’t like Harry Potter. Wicca actually uses science in my opinion. I think this because everything is made out of energy. Like what the law of attraction says.

Though there’s the argument that the law of attraction attracts good things to us. So if we attract god or the goddess how truly finite are we? Especially since we’re made in their image.

I don’t have a lot of time for a long post today so my apologies.

Do you think Wicca uses science? Lemme know and comment.

Drama drama

So me and my Master are having a lot of drama going on. Well I should start at the beginning…my mother has recently passed away and I was unsure of where I would be living next and was extremely depressed. My mom’s friend thought it would be a great idea to catch me on the rebound saying my master was abusive and asking if I was happy. I mean my master doesn’t help with chores but that’s it.

They were saying things like “your a different person without him.” And stuff like he’s the laziest person they know. Yet they were doing nothing while my mom drank herself to death. I honestly only act like a different person around them because I put a mask up that I’m happy around everyone except him. I trust him enough to see my dark side and not run.

Well after they had called my master abusive asked if I wanted out of the situation. I was at that point scared and kinda panicked so I agreed. I was getting flashbacks of my ex who made me drink my own piss so I went to their house where they acted like I was breaking up with him and shaming him in every way they could. They scared him and me to the point that my master in order to get my trust again went into a mental hospital and that still didn’t change their opinions on him it just made the bullshit worse.

My lovely loving beautiful master had to go to a mental hospital and now we can’t even be together still. My dad caught wind of the situation and thought it be great to tell horror stories about us, the weird freaky transgender heathens. My dad said I could come back to his house but my master had to stay with his parents.

My dad keeps saying things on how my master was bad for me but a lot of stuff was stuff I did to survive. I only make a very low amount like 700$ a month which most of my money went to food and keeping us sane while living with a dying addict. I just feel like no one knows my side of things but no one will even listen to my side of the story.

I honestly feel horrible that my Master and Daddy has had a shitty week because I panicked and was depressed. I feel like I need behavior training on how to go to Daddy when I’m sad. Kitten loves you Daddy!!

An unfortunate time.

Well, I’m saddened to report that my mom has passed away and I’m dealing with a lot of family crap and drama. I was unfortunately the person to find her dead body and it wasn’t a pretty sight. We’re still waiting for the results on why she died but I have a pretty good idea of what it was.

My mom had a huge problem with abusing painkillers and alcohol. I have a pretty good idea in my head that she literally drank herself into the grave. I mean everyone around me agrees but thinks that “It was okay because she was in pain.” I mean I have all the ailments my mother had and probably a little more. I honestly handle my daily pains in a very good way. I actually meditate and destress and almost never take meds for it. I guess I feel she should of handled things in a better way.

Everyone around me is saying things like “She was a godsend.” and “She was such a good person.” It honestly hurts to hear that because she was never good to me and I was her own kid. She would turn on me like a hungry wolf when no one was looking. I guess we all have our dark sides. I honestly have never told people about her abuse with  me behind closed doors. I guess I feel like everyone will think I’m lying.

I also feel kind of cheated that I had to care for my abusive mother like a maid / nurse all the way up until the end. I feel robbed of the first year of my marriage because of all the drama and bullshit.

I think my main point in this post is don’t let your inner demons hurt the ones you should love the most. Also don’t turn to things like drugs or whatever because it only gets worse from that point on.